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[Aug. 8th, 2005|09:28 pm]
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I logged in thinking I was going to give an actual update but this briefing will have to do.

Finished up my first week of assistant managering at Century Center 'Bux. I like it so far. I'm still not use to working so much...my tiredness is reminscent of when I was working the 'bux and mci and I haven't quite adjusted. At least when I was working the 2 jobs I had Victor to come home to at night, but now I come home tired to a usually hot room, and a restless nights sleep. Bleh and Blah.

I feel so incredibly close to him...and pain stakingly far at the same time. I want to cry tears of happiness everytime I hear his voice, and tears of sadness the moment I have to get off the phone with him. I hate that I don't get to talk to him as much because of both of our busy and conflicting school and work schedules. I just want to cry right now because I want to call him for no reason at all just to tell him how much I love him and how special he is. I'm getting all teary eyed right now just THINKING about how much I miss him!

I've become a crying, emotional fool. I hope my baby doesn't mind :/

[User Picture]From: m4keurself99
2005-08-09 11:05 pm (UTC)
I love you sweetheart. Thank you for your reply.

I know the distance will take it's toll on me emotionally at times, but if there's one thing that will always bring me back up, it's knowing that I love you and you love me. Love is all we need, sweetheart. I know without a doubt in my mind that YOU are the love of my life, and you are all i'll ever need.

Thinking about being with you forever or even thinking that far ahead doesn't scare me, sweetheart....what scares me is the thought of NOT being with you forever.

I'd always felt a void that never bothered me before...that void of not having that person to love, and love me back. It never bothered me because I never found it or even seeked it out, so I didn't know what I missing. You, my love, are a godsend to MY life. You are everything I never knew I always wanted. You are the only person i've ever said I love you to, and the only person I ever want to say those words to, and hear those words from.

and on that note...

I Love You, Victor Javier Ochoa <3

G'nite my love.

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